Farewell: I lost my half of my heart

3 June 2018

I can never forget...

The verse I read...

The prayer I made...

The feeling I had...

The time I spend...

The gazed she had on me...

The conversation she had with me...

The prayer I read on his forehead before I leave...

The moment I spend on that Sunday evejing still burn bright in my head and my heart...

Finally, when I met her again...

She was lying there, cold and lifeless, in her white clothes...

No more nagging...
No more laughing...
No more smiling...

Just her normal wrinkling forehead that was unable to settle down any more...

A kiss of goodbye on that very forehead...
Abundance verses of prayers that cause me to loose my voice...
Endless of tears till now...

I lost a dear friend, my aunt and my heart...

I miss her so much...

That when I decided...
I will not wait for anymore death before I get to fulfill this wishes of mine.

I shall not wait not I shall care for others who disregard me during my fragile moments

I shall not wait any more...

Farewell mak yong, I will always pray for you. Love you till the end.

The furious heart of yours could never waived my bleeding heart...

March 2018

Everything has to move...

The plan is in motion...

I yearned to tell somebody but as my heart scream for attention...you look away and close ypur ears...

All you ever utter were dissatisfaction over evrything which left me no room to say a single thing

All you do are complaining all day long and hardly look at yourself for mistakes...proud of your ownselves and forgot to be humble and forgive others.

I...shut my eyes, my ears, my heart and my mouth, since nothing I said shall satisfied your greedy heart...

Nothing will and never will...

So I left my heart to bleed and ignore those furious eyes of yours...

Though this heart sadden the most...question upon question left unanswered. Why are they so greed? and why did they close their eyes and heart from others kindness?

It left to uncertainty deep in one soul...

The long thoughts and the decision I made...

August 7, 2017

A mysterious day to celebrate your birthday on an Island far from home...

A gentle hug from strangers that you will never forget...

A modest gift from nature and the sea...

A simple wish bless by dear Lord of the universe...

And a time given to gaze over the blue sky, grey cloud and snowy mountain...

Thus, a long thought run through every nerve that still alive and a heavy decision have been made there and then...

On the land of the Kiwi's celebrating my 31st born day away from my hectic life that nearly drawn me to insanity...I pray hard and wish will all my heart...

I need to stop this madness and let nothing stop me from living this insane life of mine behind...