Freee.........is something I will not get while being a workaholic ^~^

It has been a year (and a few month) since I wrote something here...and it seems to become a trend in my life to stop when I drop or off working madly...

I was wishing deep down in my heart to God..please give me some free time to live...

But not a moment right now I had the time to be carefree and able to left everything behind...
I missed comfortable slumber till morning, I missed eating a lot of delicious food, I missed cooking everything and anything and I missed writing a song, a poem (I do but I don't know where I place it
 -_-) and jotting down my traveling experiences....

Ahhh...how I missed to be a normal person and a nobody...not to be remembered and not to be known...

But that all in the past....

I stop writing when I appointed (again) as the young and the only woman as a Head of Department...

People put hopes...people (I choose not to say who..) create gaps..people blame mistakes...people giving this and that...and people sympathize...

There are some showing love, appreciation and respect...but they are just small numbers and couldn't be seen with eyes...

and once you moved in this direction (as what you've been appointed)...time seems to move faster than before....

There are no time for a happy sleeping (I still make sure that I woke up with a happy mind - coz this influenced my mood for the whole day - You don't want to see my moody days coz I hurt people so much without feeling guilty that it seems I had the heart of a stone)....and I have no time for "a cup of tea"...

all I do is working non-stop and wreck havoc to my life... -_-

and what comes after worst... is non to blame... I injured my knee and was advised to limit my movement...

Life is hard...life is a challenge...life is full of mystery...and my life is mixed with "tea" and "coffee" with additional of vanilla, chamomile and lemon...

I wish to be free..However, the question that came up to my mind made me wonder till now....

"after you've been set free, then, what will you do?" "What do I do next?"

--Just my piece of trouble mind and trouble heart-- (will be going to Japan soon with no heart at all..knee still hurt like hell T_T )